Fear

These shootings need to stop. So tired of seeing parents bury their kids. So tired of kids crying and running in fear at school. What do we have to lose in making gun laws more strict? It's not like it can get any worse right? Was asked the other day if I was afraid to go watch Black Panther at the theater over the weekend. My answer is a quick no. Person that asked me said there was no way they'd be going to a place like that again. In my mind that's no way to live. I know how I try to live my life and where I find my joy and peace. What I do fear is how my child will react. He has so much joy and loves everyone he comes across. (Mostly everyone. Sometimes he gives you the people's eyebrow and I love it) I don't ever want him to loose that joy for life. But the chaos that is going around in this country right now with race relations and shootings everywhere you look it can really suck the life out of a person. I don't know how Corbin will react to this stuff. I can only imagine the questions that will come our way when he gets older. This is where we ask for these fears to be turned into faith. We won't have all the answers but there's always Hope. Hope that there will be a better day. Hope that the answers will come. Hope that the people around us will open their eyes and see the violence isn't the way, that a wall isn't the way. Hope that we will start loving one another like we love our self. Hope that our little one will never loose their joy. #parentalparadox

Dad Thoughts

Can't believe how much this dude has changed from then to now. So quick. And here are my latest thoughts... As a dad I think it's really easy to feel like I'm not doing enough. I don't know why but every once in a while I start to feel this way. Could it be how sleepy Holly is at the end of the day? Possibly.(But she's always needed at least 12 hours of sleep a night to tell the truth.) It's tough finding that balance between getting the rest you need, making sure your wife is getting her needs met/getting her rest, and loving on the lil chicken nugget. Is it something that you figure out after ten years or something that you get a better understanding of sooner than that? Will you get a better understanding of that after another kid? Maybe I need to relax and not put so much pressure on myself? I dunno. I know that my main goal is making sure that my family is healthy and happy. I just need to keep that in the forefront of my mind. It's much easier said than done though... #parentalparadox